I havent lost any weight at all instead I gained 1lb. I’m was quite disappointed but I know I havent cheated this week. I been walking everyday for two hours and been using the stairs quite alot. I have seen some difference in my face n my body. I fit into my clothes more comfortably… I am going to keep positive…. hopefully next week I will see changes.
I have been talking to guy for a (long) while. We have become quite close but he cant make his mind up what he wants from me. His doesnt want to make commitmentt yet he wants me to be around for him (when ever he wants). I didnt agree with this. He then got all defensive and said quite harsh things. All i see him as a friend (that i can speak to) and secreatly i would have liked to be more then that. But accepted that this isnt possible long ago.
The things he said last night made me really sad… I wanted to eat anything that i find in the kicthen. Instead I reach for a book to read and got few fruits from the bowl n started munching on them. Although I couldnt really concentrate what i was reading but it kept me busy from eating un healthy things… So far I am doing ok… just have to keep reminding my self that food doesnt solve my problems.
I have been losing weight and gaining back on constantly over the years. Some thing stressful happens and I go back to comfort eating.I have issues with what I eat. There so many restriction as I know small slice of cheese and literally put on few pound and it shows the weight on my face. I thought it was me who imaging thing but my family and friends notice it too. Out of no where my double chin appears ( it takes one weeks of killing excerise to loose it as well).I don’t have tea because I want additional biscuits to accompany it. I crave for biscuits like mad!!!! Specially the ones I make at homes I miss the most. L I miss sweet thing like sugar in tea n cereals etc. I miss chocolates too.The thing is when I eat carelessly I don’t care what I put in my mouth for those few minutes I am bliss but soon as I finished I know what harm I done to my body.Now I keep a food diary to make sure that I am on the track… so far I doing ok.
I had problems with eating since I was in my early teens. I used secretly miss breakfast and avoid eating in the evening. The only food I ate id during lunch. At that time that’s the only thing I could control. It all began since my father keep saying I should exercise because I put on weight. He kept repeating it every day. He made sure I got it through my head. My mother said to enough him I’m ok. But few months of start high school I started not to eat properly.
Now looking back I was perfect there was nothing wrong with my weight, actually it would have been good if I had put on little weight. I couldn’t see it back then that I was beautiful. I lost so much weight then, i looked sick and un happy. But to my dad I was still fat. Buy any clothes from the shop was a nightmare he would comment on what size i brought’calling fat people clothes. He basically made my life miserable.
Now i have gone the opposite I have gained five stone over the last ten years… I want to go back to my healthy self for my sake.
I havent writtern anything in while because I simply did have anything to say. Shamefully I lost the motivation too.
But last week while I was passing the weighing machine at one the shops I thought lets see what happend since Jan. It weighed 206lbs - i was sad for the fact i gained 5lbs but greatful it wasnt more then that.
I restarted my excerise routine. I’ve been doing ‘in- door walking’ basically while I watch the idiot box I walk back and forth in my living room. So for one hour each in the morning and the evening i have been walking instead of sitting down while watching TV. I weighed my self yesterday and i lost 3lbs which is great concidering I have been eating junk through out the week because I have been stressed out.
So I feel much better that I have started this… just have to keep walking …
I used to weigh back in August 12th 209 lbs it hit me then I needed to something so I started but personal problems got on the way and I lost interest and motivation to carry on….
But yesterday when my weight showed 201lbs it was a shocked because I knew I had put on more weight but the scales say otherwise it could be becos I have started using the treadmill again since last Saturday. Or it could be becos I am drinking bit more water (finding it hard!!!!) what ever the case need to keep going and hope for the best.
My goal is to loose 5lbs for now havent given my self a fixed date as such becos it will never work.
My biggest weekness is cheese and rice. I bit of cheese makes alot of difference on ME!!! becos my Double CHIN just crops up from no where !!! Every ones around me notices it too … lol - well thats a liitle insight into my fat world … LOL
Ok done the weigh in today, which I really didnt want to do. But I needed face the reality.
So my weight is 14st 5lb = 201 lbs
How do I feel about it? SAD but happy too becos I WILL make changes which will benefit in the long run. Couples of years ago I lost quite alot of weight just using the treadmill alone with out going on a diet. Still ate all the junk but lost good amount. Still got that treadmill at home so going to start using it and keep going on that machine like my life depends on it.
Wish me luck!!!
Hey,
Really need to take action now - been lazying around and put on loads of weight. I want to loose (short term goal) is 14 lbs. Needs to loose more though but taking very small steps is a key to success (well been told - just need to try it).
I am Bengali girl which means Indian food is always in the menu and I cant live with out it. I know rice is my soul enemy…lol - I’m not kidding either. Always want to take a bit more with curry and b4 I know, I have stuffed my self so much I cant breath.
Theres more to say but i need to go now…
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